we wish to lose it

We have a secret wish
To lose control
To be ripped free
Of the Neat and Tidy
The clean edges that prove
That we can keep it together
In this chaos

It waits in our throats
As a carnal cry
Heaves in our shoulders
In the moments
That no one else sees
Creeps up in quiet moments
When we ponder
Running barefoot
Into the wild forest

Control is a cage
We put ourselves into
Every morning
After we venture into the wilds
Of everything that can be dreamed

And we wait until the next sleep
To breathe freely
And go there again

Let's lose control
Just a little
Let it pull at our hair
And take us somewhere
That seems at once
Terrifying
And beautifully familiar